The power of love...

The power of love to change bodies is legendary, built into folklore, common sense, and everyday experience.  Love moves the flesh, it pushes matter around.... Throughout history, "tender loving care" has uniformly been recognized as a valuable element in healing.  ~Larry Dossey


Last week I began to feel like maybe I wouldn't feel well again.  Thursday found me still relishing my bed. Friday I decided I didn't care if I felt well or not.  I was getting out of bed, out of the house, and back out into life, sick or not.

And a surprising thing happened.  I actually started to feel better.  Friday night we decided to go watch The Squirt A's play in their hockey game in the big Squirt International tournament here in town for the weekend.  I was delighted to have the opportunity to see so many people we don't see on a regular basis right now.

And I have something I want to say.

I want to tell you its okay.

Its okay if you come to me with tears in your eyes.  Yep, tears, okay.

Its okay if you want to ask me how I am.  I'm fine talking about it.

Its also okay if you DON'T want to talk about it.  We can talk weather, kids, hockey, whatever.  Its all okay.

Its also okay to talk about, your cold, your headache, your job frustration, your sadness over something,  etc.  I hear this a lot, "oh but its nothing compared to what you are going through, I shouldn't be telling you."  Yes, you should.  Want to know why?  It makes me feel normal!  You're treating me like you would any other person, and it makes me feel human and normal.  Me having cancer doesn't diminish your concerns, and worries and struggles, and shouldn't dampen your joy.

Saturday, was even better for me.  I made it through 2 really good hockey games, and an afternoon at the Home Show.  I had hit a wall by the time we left the Fargo Dome.

I came home to a mailbox stuffed with cards.  One of them was anonymous.  And it humbled me very deeply.  It had lovely, gracious words in it.  And offered an apology of sorts for not knowing what to say when that person sees me.

Please, please know. Its okay.  I don't expect anyone to really know what to say- shoot I don't know what to say half the time myself.  But I have never, and I do mean never, walked away from a  conversation feeling like someone said the wrong thing, or not enough of something, or what have you.  It takes a great deal to approach someone going through something difficult.  Thank you.  I'm glowing with the light you sent my way!

I have the best of everything when it comes to my treatment.  The best facility with the best people.

I have all the best meds.  I have stuff for nausea, pain, GI distress, diarrhea, constipation, etc.  I took a combination of all of those things last week.

And you know what finally made me feel better?  YOU.  All of you!  Because you see me and you care.  By the way you touch my arm, or hug me, or put an arm on my shoulder.  Or call out to me.  Or light up when you see me.  Or write or call or email. Its medicine of the best kind.


I've been meaning to send a special thank you to someone else doing something to help our family.  Melissa is hosting a Stella and Dot catalog party with the proceeds coming to us.  If you'd like to check out the newest from Stella and Dot please follow this link Melissa/Stella and Dot.  You have a couple more days to order something if you'd like! Thank you Melissa!  You're the best!