AT my last chemo session in September, I dumped my chemo bag by accident and the contents scattered everywhere. The gratitude journal, the very journal that Sara had sent me for my Birthday a couple of years ago, disappeared. My nurse graciously helped me maneuver around my infusion line and iv pole and I got on the floor to see underneath the recliner... nothing.
The nurse then did the same to be sure. But chemo room number 7 wasn't bringing me any luck that day. So sadly, I called the next few days to see if it had turned up. It hadn't.
Today, after a long morning of lab work and waiting and visiting Dr. Panwalkar I waited for an infusion room to open up. I suddenly jumped out of my chair and rushed to the nurses station and in a rush of words asked if they had perhaps found a notebook/journal?
And the nurse reached over and held up... my journal!! The one I pour out my gratitude in. They just found it... yesterday. How on earth it lay hidden for three weeks, only to be found the day before I had treatment is more than just coincidence to me.
I ran my fingers over the opening lines of the journal...
"First it begins inside your heart. Something moves. Then opens. Then frees itself. And now you feel a rhythm breaking its long silence. This is going to be good."
And as many have surmised, I can just see the hands of Sara written all over this journal being placed back in my hands again. I delighted in filling the pages with gratitude today.
My sweet, precious friend, Gitz, who is newly in her heavenly home, will be having a funeral service tomorrow. If any of you are inclined, it will be webcast by the link down below, at 1:30 pm. I am still on for surgery tomorrow and do not know if I will be home or not in time to see. My heart aches knowing I long to be there, but Sara isn't really going to be there either... obviously she is already busy looking out for all of us. Plus, I can feel her love any time I choose to. And today, I am choosing to love you, Sara Frankl, deep and wide.
Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement.