Stuck in the blender...

I think my life is in blend mode these days, its seems that green smoothies aren't the only things that come out of my blender.  I have days where my emotions get tangled inside.  When I get too far ahead of myself, they threaten to whirl off into space, and I've learned to jam the on the off switch and change my direction as quickly as possible.


Some days its my brain that feels like its stuck in the blender, chemo brain is no joke.  Mostly I look at common objects and struggle with what to call them, and sometimes names won't come to mind.  But mostly its my daily life that is becoming a blend- normal every day life, like planting spring flowers, taking the boys to their activities, and doing laundry, with a heaping side of all things "cancer."  It goes a little like this...




Notice that so far "planting" of flowers has not happened, only "buying" and "hanging" flowers.  But normal spring activity nonetheless.

Then theres a knock at the door and this arrives.  I've been warned its a brutal regimen, and I have no plans for attempting something like this, but I've also heard this is a great read... so here I go...

And along with a little Lance, some more Kris Car.  She is like the EF Hutton of cancer, if she is talking, I am listening! 

Had to throw in this extraordinary example of normal... Rick's company does the yearbook for our kids' school and they turned out so well.  They are completely fun and cute books!  The drawings were done by the students and each child got to do a self portrait that is printed below their classroom photo-- so clever!  They had extras and even they sold out yesterday shortly after noon.

And this showed up, along with vinegar and soda for cleaning.  But I have no idea who?  We found it in a Target bag in our garage... and the mystery of who brought it remains.  But thank you!  I'm reading up on how to go about using them to clean.

Hello new staple in my diet.  So there is something called the Budwig diet.  Its the name of a German Scientist who discovered a process that happens when you blend flax oil with organic cottage cheese.  The oil takes away all the cheese properties, while combing with it and forming a new compound that helps a body rid itself of cancer.  But really, you just have to google it and make up your own mind.  I think its worth a shot.  It tastes good and helps me feel like I am doing something good for myself.  

Each day I make strides in learning a little more, and then trying to assimilate and blend them into every day life.  But so far, my bloodwork is showing signs of improvement.  Whether its the chemo, or diet, or both, its slowly making a difference.  But I can only understand when the values aren't what they should be...  so now I am tackling a foreign language -lab results for chemo patients- wow, fortunately when I don't get it, I can just blame it on chemo brain and people just nod in agreement.  There is always a silver lining when you look for it- even when you're in blend mode.