To this day, he is intense, persistent, kind, unrelenting, demanding, loving, spirited, loud, smart, funny, caring, passionate and has boundless energy. But that smirk on his face? Is the biggest indicator of who he is. Its the devilish grin at the edges of his smile on an otherwise angelic face, that gives him away.
Dear Nolan, we forget sometimes, when we get caught up in the centrifugal force of your spirited nature, to see the whole you. I am sorry we do that. The whole you is a beautiful soul, that walks through life with a smile on his face, his heart on his sleeve, and a natural intensity for life that is hard to assuage. Every year we go through your baby book together and tell the story of you. I have it here ready, and tonight I am all yours.
Even after 11 years, I'm still learning, Nolan. And I want you to know, I SEE you. All of you. You've taught me so much already in these 11 years, I can't even imagine what the next 11 will look like. But I am here peanut, basking in your light, with my arms wrapped around you, and a giant piece of my heart lodged in yours. I'll be with you forever.
Love you to the moon and back, Mom.