Sometimes...
after Herceptin infusion...
I feel…
yucky.
A gnawing nausea sits in my stomach… begging for relief.
Sometimes...
after infusion...
fatigue starts chasing me into bed more than I'd like to be.
And Rick has to leave overnight…
with Nolan.
So I call from my bedroom for help from Colton. Because he'll find the bin of meds. And bring me something to drink. But he couldn't hear me. So I just laid there.
Till hours later, a groggy boy appeared, rubbing his sleepy-eyes, asking if he could just sleep with me to feel better?
Everytime...
he makes everything feel right with the world again.
Everytime…
I just love that kid.
Oh my blessed friend,
ReplyDeleteI am so, so grateful for you and I am honored that you share the times that are not so easy, along with the times that are so, so wonderful. We just get snip-its of each other's lives
as we read blog posts and sometimes forget that even though you are Stable Mable...you are still fighting cancer and getting infusions. Some days and nights are still not easy.
And that sweet boy of yours with the huge heart who adores his Mama more than words can ever express, everytime his unconditional love is a salve for your soul. Colton is like an angel, unafraid to let everyone know how much you matter to him. Love, love, that picture of his contented sleeping...a reminder that as long as you are nearby, all is well for him.
I'm off to the ocean (Cannon Beach, Oregon) for a week with a gal friend. Just so you don't worry. Know that as always I am sending you huge hugs, loves and prayers...always prayers.
To the moon and back, dear Vicky!
Love,
Linda
Ohhhh- I hope I get to see some pics of the beach perhaps! Enjoy your time dear friend- and thank you for letting us know so we don't worry about you! Love you~
DeleteLinda said it perfectly. ..my typing is limited on my phone so just a quick comment to let you know I 'heard' you and am praying for you (from NY this week).
ReplyDeleteThank you Arie- so appreciate that! Hope you are having a great week in NY!
DeleteOh. My heart goes out to you that you suffered without relief. I wish I could have been the one to rush to your side and help you out of that hole. Bless Colton's heart. And yours sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteThanks Roxane! I know you are off on your family week together and I so hope you are having a fabulous time! Blessings to you and yours!
DeleteSweet and loving Nolan.
ReplyDeleteSugar hugs for him!! Love him so much.
Hugs and love to you, sweet friend. You endure and overcome more than most will ever begin to even think about. And always with such love in your heart. Only one of the many reasons I am honored to call you "friend. "
Love,
Jackie
Thank you Jackie~ I am so thankful he will still allows me brief interludes of time to be with him when he is tender hearted. Love always wins in the end, right friend? How I know, you know! Much love to you always!
DeleteOh, Vicky! I'm so sorry you didn't have anyone right there when you needed someone. Don't want your family to feel badly, it happens to all of us. But that sweet Colton who showed up to fill your heart with love...priceless. I love that dear boy, too... and you, my friend! And you know, you really could text/call me (and countless others, I'm sure) who would love nothing more than to come over and fetch something for you.. I know you would rather not do that...but just try it sometime and see how your posse comes running. :) Might be good entertainment.
ReplyDeleteTake care!
Steph- all my go-to peeps were gone! It happens once in awhile :) And its true, as I hunt through person after person, I never think of someone new and I should! As it turned out- I was talking to a friend in the cities who called her mom who lives here. While we were still talking- her mom arrived at my door with exactly the things I needed! But I think lesson learned- I'll expand my list- good thinking :)
DeleteBless your heart, and his. I pray that you will find rest and strength today. Night-time is tough when there is pain and suffering involved; things are magnified in the night. God is with you, and you know this - with you no matter day or night. His everlasting arms are there. But it is so good to have a physical presence too. Glad your son was able to eventually be there for you, what a sweetheart. Sending love and prayers from over here xxx
ReplyDeleteIts true Susan- alone and feeling unwell are a bad combo for me. Some people relish the solitude, but I like having a resource, or at least a physical presence nearby- tis true! Most days I do- I am very blessed in that way. Thankful for your insightful and kind words!
DeleteSo sweet. One of my favorite stages of babyhood is when you're holding the baby, patting his back and he begins to pat yours. Nothing beats the love of a child.
ReplyDeleteOh Kass, that is a great visual to remind me of- so true! Amen- nothing like the love of a child :)
DeleteTo this...post all I could think was 'Bless your hearts"! such love has no words and such nausea and fatigue has many prayers always going to all of you! so sweet in it realism and simplicity...love love love and more love to you all!
ReplyDeleteThankful for those prayers, Peggy Sue. Another day or so and this too shall pass :) Much love right back to you!
DeleteHow I wish I was closer so that in time like these I might be able to do things for you when you are not feeling up to par. Hugs to you my friend!
ReplyDeleteWell friend- just distracting me by playing games with me even as you do- helps. So grateful for even that to help redirect my mind and give me something else to focus on! Love to you!
DeleteHope you are feeling better today! :-) :-) :-)
ReplyDeleteToday, I can finally say I am :) On to the weekend!
DeleteI hope today was a better day <3 What a lovely young man you are raising there.
ReplyDeleteToday is definitely better, finally :) I'm putting it behind me and moving forward for sure.
DeleteDear Sister know that you are loved by your little tribe and that you are in my prayers. It's great to be strong and all that but know that it is okay to cry, after a good cry I always feel better.
ReplyDeleteWarm ((HUGS)) Jo from Anne's Attic - Design http://fulcolbaxia.wordpress.com
Hi Jo- how nice to see you pop up here :) I'm ok- just some infusion rounds are better than others. And yes- better out than in I always say- empty to fill again :) Hugs back to you!
DeleteI don't know your son, but I love that kid too.
ReplyDeleteAhh, thanks Mark :)
Deleteyes, prayers to the moon and back, times 100.
ReplyDeleteThanks Hilary- right back at ya :)
DeleteVicky, Have your cell by you and call me when you need anything, water, meds...anything....Please? It takes me 10 seconds to get there. Please make me feel useful!!!!! Love you
ReplyDeleteBarb- I didn't know you were here! Thought you might be back in AZ :) Would love to visit with you- haven't even seen you this summer. Maybe next week? xxoo
DeleteOh, I hope you are starting to feel a little better as you start the weekend!
ReplyDeleteWhat a precious face he has and growing up so. Glad you are feeling better. You are always in my prayers sweet girl. That was hard being alone when you are feeling unwell but glad that boy of yours was there to make it right. xxx
ReplyDeletePrecious boy. God's love in a boy body. Comfort so deep.
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