I'm holding on... despite the nasty side effects kicking back in. The cramps in my feet were more than Rick or I could massage out last night. It took me gulping down water while we poured steaming water and lavendar epsom salt into the tub and pushed my arched foot and toes underneath.
Each night I put off taking my Tykerb till just a little later in the evening. Last night it was nearly midnight before I could push myself to go take it.
I finally settled in for the night, only to be awoken hours later, cramping now residing in my stomach. I was soon up with a stomach both cramping and emptying in epic proportions. It took most of the night, but, Immodium finally kicked in early this morning and I slept fitfully for awhile.
Dr. P already predicted this would occur, and gave me permission to cut back on the Tykerb if needed.
Its so tricky... finding the balance. Enough to hold back the cancer, and yet enough so that I can live fully. Thankfully, I'm reminded each day, He is enough, whether anything else feels like it or not.
And when He is enough?
Despite all these little annoyances...
Do you know what I am holding onto?
All of Him...along with...
All of you...
The response to my "I just want..." post, has breathed life into me. I feel buoyed and strengthened by such a compassionate and encouraging outpouring of love and life- that rather than feel discouraged- I feel fully alive.
Just look what has continued to be a part of my daily life.
I hope Marta is okay with me sharing her beautiful artwork- a whole booklet of inspiration! Thank you sweet girl!
I choose a different page in this book almost daily- I love how my friend Aim gets me time and time again.
My niece, Madi, recommended this book to me. I'm half way through. Its a trilogy in young adult fiction and it reminds me of The Hunger Games which I truly enjoyed.
And this is next on my list... has anyone read it yet? Looks good to me!
I can't say if she knew how badly my feet could use this- but oh what a delightful gift! I'm nearly 1/4th into it already- but the salve works wonders on my deeply peeling and sore feet. Thank you from my far-away friend Jennifer!
What are you hanging onto these days? Any books I must read? Movies to add to my netflix Queue?
I'm having to stay a little close to home trying to get my stomach and issues under control. Thank you all for sending me just enough to know I'll be okay.
Sending love to you all...