Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't. - Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free
We left last Thursday for St. Paul, MN and the opening round of the 2013 MN State Hockey Tournament. Our high school team, the Moorhead Spuds were scheduled to take on another northern team, the Duluth East Hounds.
We left at 6 am and were treated to temps warming as we drove and a beautiful sun lighting up the sky. It set the tone for a magical, fun, exciting, live-your-moments full- 4 days of hockey madness.
We ate too much, slept too little, laughed way hard, and celebrated all the moments in between.
I wanted to capture it all- each person- each moment- each memory.
But, here's a small sampling of the friends, the places, the fun, the memories- the people I love and treasure who always, above everything else, make me feel like I matter, with tons of loving gestures.
Most of the pics are from my phone - some are grainy and blurry, out of focus, lacking light, etc. I don't care. They froze the moments I want to cherish and remember and that is all that really counts in the end.
Congrats Spuds- Consolation Champs!
I was expecting the call from Dr. P. I was not expecting the news he had to share with me. The study will not "unblind" their results for me so that I can find out if I had Pertuzumab or not. He called it "borderline unethical" that they won't tell me.
Bottom line, it means we can't risk right now, taking a drug that I may have already had that eventually failed.
So I will have to go with his plan B drug of choice- Xeloda. Its a good drug. Its an oral pill I take several times a day. I will start next week.
But this drug carries more side effects: nausea, diarrhea, hand and foot syndrome (crack, peel, bleed), mouth sores, metalic taste in mouth, lowered blood counts and the possibility of thinning hair or hair loss (smaller chance for total hair loss.)
I was subdued after the call for a bit, not quite ready to face the possibility of not feeling well again. But then I leaned into my own words- and just decided to live my moments full, despite what may or may not happen.
What I like most about change is that it’s a synonym for “hope”. If you are taking a risk, what you are really saying is, “I believe in tomorrow and I will be part of it.” – Linda Ellerbee