I am, I think, I know... round III

I have done this little meme on two different occasions and love seeing both how I change and how I stay the same... 

I am: living in grey and dreaming of technicolor days when the sun returns and I feel it on my bare skin.

I think: in stutter steps these days.  sluggish with a tinge of clarity every once in awhile.  

I know: how much I still don't know... but thank goodness for google.  

I want: the oddest things suddenly.  grandchildren, graduation and grace-filled days.  not necessarily in that order!

I have: so many places I want to travel.

I dislike: judgement-my own and others.

I miss: seeing the way my Dad's eyes would dance as he called me "you little snicklefritz."  

I fear: time going by too quickly when it comes to my kids growing up

I feel: muted.  sluggish. the deep cold hurts my lungs and I am hibernating these days.

I hear: the hum of office equipment working at full capacity.

I smell: a freshly peeled cutie, clinging to my fingertips

I crave: sugar and eating healthy both at the same time.  

I search: for the questions I should be asking- while trying not to discover the answers I don't really want to know.

I wonder: will I ever wear a pony tail in my hair again?  

I regret: not always realizing the very things I will grow to regret

I love: being part of things bigger than I imagine... and its all bigger than I imagined.

I care: always, deeply, always

I am always: trying to live with intention and honor and grace and strength- and sometimes just trying to live.

I worry: why yes, I do... oh boy, do I...

I remember: things in minute detail sometimes from long ago.

I sing: no, really I don't, you're welcome.

I argue: with my kids about NOT arguing!

I write: to make sense of my world

I lose: track of time when I am writing

I wish: to live my moments full each and every day.

I listen: as much to what is said, as to what isn't said... what isn't said says more at times.

I don't understand: how I now find myself explaining "new math," when all I know is old math.

I can usually be found: somewhere between my bedroom oasis and the hockey rink.

I am scared: when I think about how much my mom now depends on me.

I need: to be mindful that I have everything I need and to be thankful for just that.

I forget: so, so, much, I feel like swiss cheese some days... yikes...

I am happy: period. despite the messy and hard, despite the grey, the worry, the fear.  I'm happy!

Care to join me?  Copy and paste if you'd like and let me know- I'd love to come read yours!