These two have been my constant companions. Friday night, they snuggled on Superman's side of the bed, not wanting to disturb me, but sensing it was where they were supposed to be.
Just the night before Colton had come into my room wanting to talk about my surgery.
"Did they find bad cells in your tummy they are taking out?"
"No, no bad cells. We're taking out the part that helped grow you into who you are. Since I have the two most perfect boys, I don't need those parts to grow more babies- you are it!"
"Ah" he says. "So do you have bad cells any other place?"
I try not to sigh too loudly, or pause too long. He is so astute- he will interpret the subtlest nuances.
"Well, I do have some in my lungs."
"Oh… so you do still have cancer."
"I do."
He nods his head solemnly.
I've said enough.
He's heard way more than enough.
I remember to thank God again, for the gift of coming home to be right where I am supposed to be.
We both sleep peacefully late into the night.
In case you need a laugh…
Two things that helped me immensely Friday night. The addition of ibuprofen in between my pain meds, and this Ice Bag. The pain meds most definitely have an effect on me.
I have quite a lot of bloating and swelling around my midsection- you could argue I look 4 months pregnant or so.
So it made complete sense when I was handed this ice bag at discharge time. I quickly skimmed the label…
Ice Bag
Large/Tires.
YEP! That was the perfect one for me!!
I fell asleep with the large ice bag on my large tire and it helped ease the discomfort for hours.
Thanks for the chuckle, Vicky! Loved it! And, you have the cutest snuggle companions that I have seen. Precious! How can anyone not feel better when they have those cuties snuggled up close! Best medicine ever! Hope each days finds you needing that ice bag less. Thoughts, prayers, hugs and love, Eileen
ReplyDeleteThanks Eileen- they are the best medicine for sure!
DeleteHe is such an old soul, isn't he. :-)
ReplyDeleteMore and more so it seems he is :)
DeleteBless his heart. and yours. mean it.
ReplyDeleteand thanks for the chuckle!!!
Glad you could laugh along with me and my foggy head :)
DeleteLove the boy and the dog and the laugh too! Glad it was all well in your world this weekend.
ReplyDeleteIt was Marcy- it truly was :)
Deletethat picture of your son and pooch is darling!! Glad you're on the mend.
ReplyDeleteThanks Katie :)
DeleteColton and Crosby understand how to provide support just by being present. not a bad skill for the human of the two to learn. he is wise beyond his years in some ways.
ReplyDeleteglad you still have your sense of humor in tact. thankful all went well! God is GOOD!
Amen, friend- amen to everything you've said :)
Deleteahhahahaha -- that is funny!!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you have such sweet boys to comfort you!
Prayers continue to flow to you Vicky - I am not letting up! I pray you are wrapped in His perfect healing!
xo
Thankful for those prayers Tiffany- always- still figuring out my way through the new hormonal storm going on :)
DeleteI want to hug the worries right out of Colton.
ReplyDeleteI wish that I could. You are a wonderful Mommie.
Love you,
J.
Oh Jackie- me too! Exactly how I feel :) Love you too!
DeleteThe ice bag for your Large Tire did bring me a smile!!! I love those little things that bring a smile, a chuckle or laughter :) Your Colton, Is such a old wise soul. He is aware of everything around him. Your son's and your superman... are Battling breast cancer right along with you... It's affected all who love you...but for your boy's, for them reality came at a young age. I don't know what that would have been like...and I marvel at your precious family and how they rally for you..the things they see and are witness to...there love and desire to have more control over these 'Bad cells'. It truly affects everyone doesn't it???!!! I think Crosby even knows whats going on...for you all are his family too! Much love and even more prayers always....
ReplyDeleteEveryone responds and reacts in their own ways… so very true. As they mature and grow, their perspective also does. I am so grateful they both will come in their own ways and talk to me about most of it. And yes, even Crosby, was very careful in laying on the other side of the bed, not pressed into me as he normally would have been. But close by, nonetheless. Much love back to you Peggy Sue :)
DeleteYour post brings tears to my eyes and comfort to my heart at the same time. Sweet Colton's difficult question, and in the next breath you are thanking God for being back home, right where you are supposed to be. Your gift for finding gratitude in every situation is remarkable, and your words continue to be a blessing for us all!
ReplyDeleteSending healing thoughts and prayers your way! Take care~
Thank you Steph- nothing brings me more comfort each day then knowing when Colton leaves me, he goes straight to you. His days truly seem to sustain and nourish him and I am so grateful to all of you at school, for just that :) xxoo
DeleteYou have the best family ever...such sweet boys. Hope you feel better very soon.
ReplyDeleteLisa- well we certainly have our days when we wonder like most families about our boys :) But I don't choose very often to dwell on those things and bring them to light here- they are just typical boys! So glad however, they offer these moments in time when their sweet selves shine through :)
DeleteOh sweet friend,
ReplyDeleteThis picture of your beloved youngest with sweet Crosby, staying close, holding watch over their precious momma. Your "constant companions". Colton there to help and at the same time to be comforted by your very presence.
And most touching to me was Colton's courage to ask the hard questions that are in his heart. Like us, he wishes he could take those "bad cells" and kick them to the curb.
And you, dear Vicky, knew just what to say and what not to say. Just enough to give him some rest and reassurance of the truth and not so much as to scare his tender heart.
I love that you could find humor in the "large tire" ice bag. :) That made me chuckle.
Get rest and healing. You are in my prayers, always.
God Bless!
Love, Linda
Thank you Linda- I always hope and pray I am saying enough without it being too much. Its so hard to know what that balance is… but I just try to follow their lead. I get glimpses of what they think or feel at times and that helps guide me.
DeleteGod's blessings to you Linda! xxoo
Okay, you did it Vicky. I was sitting here bawling. Colton sounds so much like my Adam and I could totally picture him saying those exact words to me. There was no stopping the valve. I could barely read on and then I read the "large tires" bit and now the tears are dripping down and being choked by giggles. What have you done to me, my friend? My emotions don't know where to go! :) So, I'm just going to hang onto the giggles, and to the thought that you, my dear, have one very special boy there; one with a big old heart. You both are so blessed! XXOO Roxane
ReplyDeleteYa... kids want you well and you are trying hard and that's all any one can ask for.
ReplyDeleteHope he has pleasant dreams.
xoxoxoxox
Hahahahaha to the second part. Pretty sure I would need the "tractor tires" size. Glad you had a laugh and shared it with us.
ReplyDeleteAs to the first......you KNOW how often I've told you how much Colton and Hunter remind me of each other. Feelers. Readers. Temperature Takers. The nothing-slips-by-me gang. Great comforters who have to be protected from themselves. What immense gifts they are. Mine is 18 now and while they definitely grow up and steel themselves to life, those hearts still serve them - and others - in deep and wonderful ways.