I should have known...
As I have prepared for our family photoshoot with Ria, I had so many concerns flooding my head. How will I "tame" my wild hair? Its become curly with cowlicks popping up, and can I somehow manage to make it look, "photo worthy?" Can I find a shirt that fits my swollen arm, while covering my port? But please let it look cute! Can I draw in those eyebrows that are just making a reappearance? The eyelashes... or where for art thou eyelashes? Can I? A million times over, can I?
Even the day of the shoot I wonder...
Will the boys cooperate? They don't like wearing jeans... and did I match their clothes ok? Will Rick be able to carve out some time from his deadline? Will we make it in one piece?
Suddenly, it's photo day. I peek under the shade early Monday morning and the sun glints through the blue sky... and we're off. Its a day chock full of preparing for all kinds of things. But underneath, I still wonder, can I?
The time draws near for us to leave... but Rick's shirt has creases and he needs to iron. And Colton's jeans are too loose, and where is that belt? And my hair? Oh goodness, it has a mind of its own!
But suddenly we're pulling up... and it's time! And as I step out into the golden sunshine highlighting the lush green, the red hues of the rustic barn, the bursts of color from all the wild flowers... I remember...
"It's not about me..."
This life I live? Really, God's glory shone so brightly all around me I knew that even if I can't... HE can. His way, not mine. His will, not mine. And when I let go?
Look how HE shows up!
He puts my little family, in the uber talented hands of Miss Ria, and then shines a light down across all of his creation and we get to humbly stand in the midst of it. Really? The abundance overwhelms and my gratitude explodes.
And then YOU, all show up when Ria posts the photo from above on my Facebook page and says this:
"As soon as I clicked the shutter I knew this would be my favorite shot of the night. One of the things I love most about the gift of photography is the ability to see a "feeling", and I hope you can both see and FEEL love when you look at this."
And that photo gets liked, and loved over 200 times, and I'm deeply humbled by the sweetest of words and encouragement left for me. It's 200 times 200 times 200... multiplying love to infinity.
I take a few quick photos before we leave- the sun set is spectacular, just like the last time we were so blessed to shoot pictures with Ria. God's hand is clearly showing through all of this.
So this is what I'll take with me tomorrow at 1pm, to the MRI tube, and the sedation nurse. This little piece of "heaven," and my prayer list.
Can I add you to my list? How can I pray for you? Please leave a note in the comments below and as I prepare both tomorrow for the brain MRI and Friday for a PET scan, I'll pray.
I'll see Dr. Panwalkar next week and come back to share scan results soon.
And more photos to come...