For two days now, I've been wrestling with the words to use to write about what happened on Monday. And I just can't. It gets harder and harder. There are so many, who are so worthy. Yet I find myself surrounded, quite literally, by such an outpouring of generous and love-filled acts that I simply can't "wrap my brain around it."
Because, this isn't the first time this group has loved on me. After they completely outdid themselves with a benefit for me last May, they discovered they were going to miss the deadline to apply for matching funds from Dakota Medical Foundation, (DMF) Lend-A- Hand program. It was too much of an opportunity to pass up. So they did it again. Last August they held a golf outing and silent auction... for me. And they raised enough money to have it matched by DMF.
So last Monday, Rick and I received a check from DMF, and 4 of the main members of my benefit committee were in attendance. The fifth "honorary" member is Kenzie (on my hip, below.)
So this is me, doing a "brave" smile. You know the one, where if you stop for even just a second, you will completely lose it and never regain your composure again. Oprah calls it "the ugly cry." I was not going to ugly cry, so I grinned as big as I could, hoping to keep it all in. My eyes only leaked a little.
Since it was so close to lunch time, we celebrated with lunch at Granite City.
"We're here for a reason. I believe a bit of the reason is to throw little torches out to lead people through the dark."
And this is where I am stuck. How do I even begin to say thank you? Each time a hospital bill shows up, which honestly, is daily... I know we can pay it and still eat. We can pay, and still keep our house. We can pay and still let our boys go to hockey. We can pay, and we get to keep living our life. Could there be any bigger gift? Any bigger blessing? Down the road, these decisions about how we will pay, may not come so easily. But I am a "live your moments" kind of girl. And this moment? Is one I am going to savor, and just live.