I've been asked by the Embrace program through Sanford and Roger Maris, to participate in a presentation about living your legacy, in a couple of weeks.
I'm writing, and processing, sometimes just in my head, while other times, words are tossed out across thank you notes and cards.
I'm struck by this phrase as it tumbles out, "I have such an urgency to live, while at the same time wanting to slow down enough to savor the small and often fleeting moments of my days."
Yes, this is part of the legacy I want to live.
I find I am somewhere in between- urgency to live big, and slowing down to savor small. No wasting of the minutes, hovering in the midst. Its somewhere in here that I long for my boys to truly find me and know me.
This is my kitchen table, draped in memories of my mother. Through the notes, cards, momentos sent, I find more of the bits and pieces of the story of my mom.
But she's here too, where the trees bud out, and the dog lies in the greening grass, and the wind blows sunshine all over my upturned face, as tears stream. Mom, mom, I whisper, "are you here too?"
So I collect the stories, and process the loss, as it reorders my days. And swim in the in-between, knowing I'll surface once again.
Thank you for your kindness in words, and the love and support I feel, and the prayers that continue to see me through.